Yearning… A story of return (testimony)

Third in  the series of oral histories

By: Fayssal Hourani

Summary:

Must I give you, reader, the details of my return to the homeland, says Hourani in his rendition of his experiences of return.

His desire to come back to see his homeland and his mother were stronger than his opposition to Oslo. During his meeting with the Qa'ed as he always calls Arafat, he assures him he will continue writing against Oslo and its subsequent peace efforts.

With great beauty he strings the images of joy, pain and deception: the meeting with his mother and his half brother, the shattered ideal of the homeland, the corruption around, the ill treatment of the Palestinians by Occupation Authorities. His descriptions of the racist treatment of Palestinians in any contact with Israelis like when crossing the Allenby Bridge, or entering Gaza, are very vivid and also bothersome.

The dream of the homeland during his estrangement becomes a sad image he has to accept if he wants to survive his stay in Palestine. Even his mother, who dies soon after his arrival, asks him to accept the unexpected reality.